Do you spend most of your free time obsessing about food or your body? Are you counting calories, planning your next meal, searching recipes, beating yourself up about your recent choices, or trying to figure out the BEST way to figure this stuff out? Do you feel like you are smart and successful in so many other areas in life, but this is one thing that you just don’t have any control over?
That was me. For over 20 years I struggled with body image issues and binge eating disorder. I was smart, successful, driven, and from the outside it looked like I had it all together, but on the inside I was falling apart. I couldn’t focus on much other than food and my body. I was full of shame and disgust for what I did in the privacy of my room and in my car. I couldn’t dare tell anyone – what would they think of me?
I spent years going to therapy (individual, group, Intensive Outpatient) and trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I felt so broken. I was constantly researching, reading, and looking for answers. I promised myself that if I ever figured it out, I would help others do the same. I gained and lost 10 pounds, 20 pounds, 30 pounds. The mental weight was the heaviest part.
When I started this journey I was not a Christian. I can remember thinking that if I could just go away somewhere then I would be okay. I searched for help and I remember making sure that if I went to Overeaters Anonymous, that I would not have religion forced on me. I started out thinking that this was some cruel joke as my first binge happened on a box of candy that was sent to me by a church I attended one time and hated.
I became a Christian about 10 years in to my binge eating disorder, hoping that if I believed in God that He would take this away from me. The person who brought me to Christ talked about a life with “no more bad days”. Well, I had many more bad days. I went through many Christian based studies as well. I felt like a failure as a person and as a Christian. I started to believe maybe this was my thorn in the flesh. But I don’t believe that anymore. I now see why I didn’t find the peace I was looking for – with or without Christ in my life.
My answers didn’t come through therapy. They didn’t come through self help books. They came through connection. Connection with myself and with the inner wisdom that lives inside of me. I was so busy doing and achieving that I wasn’t even aware that my thinking was leading me down this path. I discovered that the answers I had been seeking were within me all along. I found peace.
Now my passion is helping other women with a history of disordered eating to find that same peace. Peace with food and peace in their bodies. And with that peace comes wisdom, clarity, and the ability to live the life you were meant to live. That clarity isn’t available when all you can think about is what you will eat or what your body looks like. I know what it’s like to want to face this journey with no religion whatsoever and I know what it’s like to believe that God is with me every step of the way. I fully believe in God and in the power of the Holy Spirit who lives in me, but I believe peace is available to anyone. My principles and my teaching can be applied universally.
I never thought I would say that I am thankful for my eating disorder. But I can honestly say that now. It has taught me so much, and I can impact the lives of countless other women who know the shame and the struggle of the battle with food and body. (Tip: you can’t find peace in the midst of a battle!).
I help others discover this peace through individual coaching, group coaching, and workshops. I am still passionate about learning as much as possible about the relationship between food and body and share my Friday Finds with my readers each week – things I found that have encouraged, inspired or taught me this week. If you never work with me personally, it is my hope that you will still be impacted through insightful and helpful free content. This journey should not be navigated alone!
I am driven and passionate in all that I do. After a career as a CPA and commercial real estate broker, where I won many accolades, I decided to pursue my passion for helping other people who face the same struggles I have. I am fulfilled by this work daily as I guide women to their own a-ha moment. I am a certified Life Coach and Weight Coach through The Life Coach School. I have helped women from all over the world discover the wisdom and insight they have within. As one client raved, “I am helping to change the world, one woman at a time”.
When I’m not coaching or creating life-changing programs, I can be found studying God’s word, training for or competing in triathlons or on the golf course with my husband. We love to be active together, spend time outdoors, and to travel – near and far. We recently took a trip to New Zealand – best.trip.ever!
And if you really want to know more, here are seven things you don’t know about me…
- My husband and I completed an Ironman Triathlon in 2012 (2.4 mile swim, 112 mile bike, 26.2 mile run)
- We also took a trip to Italy to watch and ride along some of the same roads as the Giro d’Italia (major bike race)
- I didn’t learn how to ride a bike until I was 12!
- I spent 8 weeks the summer before my Senior year of high school in Paraguay building latrines for the Amigos de las Americas
- My husband and I met at a bar
- I get just as much enjoyment out of helping people new to the sport of triathlon as I do out of being on the podium
- We don’t have any children. We had one miscarriage, many health issues, and now live vicariously through the lives of our friends’ children